What is there?

three weeks and six days. Then I'll probably never see him again. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I can feel myself slipping, not caring about anything. I mean who cares if i go to college? I'm not going anywhere am i? I mean I'll never be a success, whatever i do, or have a happy family so what's the bloody point?! I might as well just... Well i suppose that's what I'm trying to figure out: What is there for me to do with my life? I wish someone could tell me the answer to that one! Or even a suggestion might be nice...

For the first time in a while...

...I'm lonely. But i guess I'm better off like that right?

Politics

My citizenship teacher said that i have what it takes to be a politician. I'm not so sure. I've got all of my revision notes and now i have an exciting weekend of studying to do. Yippee. He ignored me as per usual. He has even taken to sitting on the opposite ends of his desk, which is next to mine. I don't know what has triggered that all of a sudden. But I'm too preoccupied (or at least i should be) with exams to worry about it. Besides what can i do about it? Nothing, that's what.

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Yay! I got the highest grade in class! Another day off today because of my bloody asthma. Got a new bag today. Finished my book, it was good. Sad but good. I'm better off alone, without any emotional ties holding me back. Wow it just hit me that my train of thought gets very mixed up. One minute i'm writing about my grades then my asthma then... Well you have read the post you know.

Angels

Has something ever happened to you that has either re affirmed or made you question your faith? Because that is what happened to me today. For the first time in a long while i went out without my guardian angel pin. I had a bad asthma attack and i had to quickly get off the bus so i could suffer without being stared at. Once i was OK and able to breathe i realised i had no clue where i was. So i went over to the other side of the road to wait for another bus to take me home but it took so long i gave up and started walking home by following the bus stops. I had no money and didn't know the names of any roads (there just aren't enough signs anymore) so my only hope was walking. So i eventually got home after walking in desert heat, carrying a leather jacket, an extremely heavy bag and wearing a rather thick jumper AND having trouble breathing. Was it a coincidence that i didn't have my angel with me? I dunno, but it just seems weird.

Quick post...

...Before i go get ready for work. Nothing has happened except that i am severely suffering from asthma attacks and they are making my life hell! gotta go!

Shakespeare inspired.

To see or not to see. To go or not to go. To be or not to be. Those are the questions.

Crazy

It sure has been a crazy year; One full of happiness, sadness and all the in betweens. This time last year i asked for drama... Be careful what you wish for!

Deciding to say goodbye

I have this week and then there will be nothing but exams for a month. After that i have no idea what I'm gonna do. I still have to decide on a college, it's been made clear that it will be nearly impossible for me to leave home whilst at college so that's one thing sorted. But i think they will have a leaving assembly for us, not sure on the date of that, also i think they want us to do this get together thing out on the beach, say goodbye whilst having fun, that sort of thing. Wow, i can't believe I'm gonna be saying goodbye to friends I've known for about a year and a school I've only just got used to. Typical! I wonder what college will bring? I pray that this will be the one educational building that will not bring me so much trouble that i have to leave. It shouldn't do though because this time I'm tougher, i will not be driven out of my own life again! Eep! Just realised that i have to write an essay and it's due tomorrow! Better get to work... What fun. I wonder if i made a mistake picking the four hardest courses in college? :D