I will...

I will live
I will die.
I will laugh
I will cry.
But i won't wait for you again
In the rain
Like i did last night.
Goodbye.

Friday, 20 November 2009

Rambles

I've just read over this blog. God, i read a lot into him and how he acted. At least i know it was just me going "oh my God!" And some of him going "oh my God!" ! I love him and he is making up for leaving me, big time. He is there for me. But i still won't forget how he acted, and he won't forget how i acted. Do you know what that's called? A bond, apparently! XD

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

Black out

I'm so ill. I've passed out, been in bed most of the time and feel like I've been put through a blender/cement mixer. Ugh. Storms, full gale winds and rain does not help the already depressed either!

poetry of the damned


It's not fair.
I don't know who i am.
Why do i feel this way?
I'm never able to be myself. Not really.
There's always a piece locked away.
A secret i won't ever say.
A lie i'll never reveal.
I made a mistake. It cost me everything.
I'll never be the same again.
No one knows who i really am.
He thought he knew me, but he didn't.
She thought she saw me, but she didn't.
What they thought they knew and saw was a shadow of what was real.
Of what i really feel.
I'll never fit in. I'm an outsider. For that i thank God everyday!
Who wants to be cool when that includes getting drunk, smoking and screwing around?
But why does being an outsider have to be so hard?
I am different. More different than you know.
That's the point really... You will never know. Because i will never tell.

untitled


perseverance is what they say my strength is
They must be right
because i got hurt again tonight
Yet i'm still ready to love
Rebound is my second name
But not in the way you might think
I wish i could hate you
But i don't have the strength
One day my heart will not be able to hold on anymore
will not react to heartbreak with immunity
i think today is that day.