Insane

It's cold, i'm ill. Things just are not going right today.

Once agan, i say "Blergh!"

Exam was OK. I miss my friend and it hasn't even been a week. I just miss hanging with people who get me, who actually... Know at least a piece of who i am. Because no one knows who i truly am, i never reveal that to anyone. And that is the way i will keep it, thank you very much.

-sigh-

I wish I had some good news to share. But i don't. I have an exam, a presentation and I think my friendship isn't strong enough to get through this whole... Mess. I just need a break. No, actually I need tomorrow over and done with so i can just... Chill. I need to get some space and just forget for a while. There's nothing else i can really say.

I don't care

Never have i wanted to run so fast or just disappear before. I just want to sleep. To stop for one minute, to stop thinking and to stop caring. When the going gets tough, the tough get tougher. And that is what i am becoming. I can feel it, i can feel myself not caring, not being emotional about anything. And i don't care... I just, don't. Not anymore. I can't.

Whaa --?!

Still highly confused, still going mad. But i have made some decisions - most of which i can't remember but i am fairly confident that it will all come flooding back once i get the two things that are swirling round my head (there are others but these take precedent over them) they are college and my friendship going weird. I mean one minute he's all "yeah lets move in together and here's the oven we'll have for our kitchen and if you have kids I'll babysit and I'll be there for you and them" .... Fade out. And then, i get a bit "yeah, well. You left me once will you do it again." That's all my issues and stuff i have to deal with i know. Anyways I'm getting off topic because I'm tired and i don't know what I'm really saying anymore... Gargh! Good night and goodbye!