Shout out

Life can be hard. I've learnt this from first hand experience. But what i have also learnt is that you can never let it get you down and you can always count on ONE person in your life. Whether it's your mom, friend or whatever. There is always someone out there who is prepared to listen, maybe you just haven't found them yet. A year ago, i never would of thought that I'd be sitting here today writing this blog, attending college or that i would have an amazing friend who i love with all my heart. I am here, alive and healthy because of some very special people, they know who they are and i hope they know how much they mean to me. So this post is a shout out to them and to anyone who has ever felt lonely and who has ever had their heart broken. Stay strong. Because believe me when i say this, the hurt will go away.

So simple...

I thought he was OK, but apparently not so much! Urgh! I wish i could take him away from all of the crap that's going on. I wish i could go to college with him and kick the ass of anyone who dares to be hurtful towards him. But i can't, all i can do is be there for him and support him in whatever he decides. I just wish i could do more. I wish he would open up more and also... I wish the college courses I'm doing would get a little bit more challenging already! I know I'll be eating my words when coursework piles up and exams start, but right now I'm bored. It's too easy. I just wish real life was so simple...

Buses, timetables and how things work out

Crap, crap, crap! Busy day, i have to make it all the way to the other side of town in under an hour! How am i going to do that with buses that, you know will never be on time? Balls, but i need to make it, to see my friend who i haven't seen in a while and i want to see him so i will make it! Not that I'll be able to hang out for long as i have to get to college (which is on the other, other side of town!) Urgh!

Misery

I am hacked off at the moment. There is stuff that will not make sense in this blog because no one who will read this will know what the hell I'm on about and i won't share so just bare with me whilst i rant awhile.
ARGH! Why are they making me wait two years, and then go through all the assessments and then wait another two years and then surgery with take three years (surgery, healing time, another surgery, healing time) and they won't lift a bloody finger or even try to understand how all this makes me feel and what i want! It's bloody unfair and i feel crap and angry and i feel like i felt last year which is depressed, angry and... Sad. But the only difference is, is that i now have my very best friend with me but i feel us drifting so i don't know if I'll have him for much longer.
There, now i have ranted and i DO NOT feel better so... I'm gonna go.

Balance

Gah! It feels like i have been up for days! I'm so tired. I'm going out tonight though, but he's too lazy to drag himself to come with. Oh well, I'll see him another day i suppose... But i sort of already feel a wall coming between us... I hope not, maybe it's just my imagination. -sigh- I'm still in love with him, but we've agreed to be friends, he doesn't feel the same way... But friends is better than nothing right? Ugh! I suppose it all comes down to balance again for a good thing to happen and bad thing has to balance it... Whatever, I'll deal.

Together forever?

Oh, i am tired! It's only been a day and already, i am like "Argh!" with work and stuff. I need a job, there is too much to save up for and so little time. Because me and my friend are going to separate colleges i am nervous because i think we will drift apart and i don't want us to because we are great together, we laugh and joke but we can get serious with each other when the time is necessary. He's the only one i can truly be myself around and i missed him today, although i am proud of myself for being independent and going it alone. -sigh- Why does life have to be so bloody complicated?! XD Ah, well. I'll live. We are together again and i just have to have faith that we will stay strong.

A new post (and chapter)

Hey guys! Jeez, it's been so long since i have posted. I'm sorry! It's just so many things have have happened in the space of a month! Me and him (yeah, you know who I'm talking about) are back together!!!!! :D Major happiness right there! My hair has changed again and so has my attitude. I'm much more kick ass than before. College starts up very, very, soon. But I'm calm and I'm gonna be OK. Because I'm no longer the meek, mild invisible person i was. But where there is happiness there must be sadness, there is always a balance to life. Things have gotten complicated, certain factors and feelings have gotten in the way of certain things but i won't go into detail. A new chapter starts here and i will be OK. I hope y'all are OK and i have to go now so until now... Buh-bye!