I will...

I will live
I will die.
I will laugh
I will cry.
But i won't wait for you again
In the rain
Like i did last night.
Goodbye.

Wednesday, 9 September 2009

Misery

I am hacked off at the moment. There is stuff that will not make sense in this blog because no one who will read this will know what the hell I'm on about and i won't share so just bare with me whilst i rant awhile.
ARGH! Why are they making me wait two years, and then go through all the assessments and then wait another two years and then surgery with take three years (surgery, healing time, another surgery, healing time) and they won't lift a bloody finger or even try to understand how all this makes me feel and what i want! It's bloody unfair and i feel crap and angry and i feel like i felt last year which is depressed, angry and... Sad. But the only difference is, is that i now have my very best friend with me but i feel us drifting so i don't know if I'll have him for much longer.
There, now i have ranted and i DO NOT feel better so... I'm gonna go.

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poetry of the damned


It's not fair.
I don't know who i am.
Why do i feel this way?
I'm never able to be myself. Not really.
There's always a piece locked away.
A secret i won't ever say.
A lie i'll never reveal.
I made a mistake. It cost me everything.
I'll never be the same again.
No one knows who i really am.
He thought he knew me, but he didn't.
She thought she saw me, but she didn't.
What they thought they knew and saw was a shadow of what was real.
Of what i really feel.
I'll never fit in. I'm an outsider. For that i thank God everyday!
Who wants to be cool when that includes getting drunk, smoking and screwing around?
But why does being an outsider have to be so hard?
I am different. More different than you know.
That's the point really... You will never know. Because i will never tell.

untitled


perseverance is what they say my strength is
They must be right
because i got hurt again tonight
Yet i'm still ready to love
Rebound is my second name
But not in the way you might think
I wish i could hate you
But i don't have the strength
One day my heart will not be able to hold on anymore
will not react to heartbreak with immunity
i think today is that day.