I will...

I will live
I will die.
I will laugh
I will cry.
But i won't wait for you again
In the rain
Like i did last night.
Goodbye.

Saturday, 13 June 2009

Blonde 2 blue

I'm going blonde for a while... Weird. Never thought i'd say that. But it's only for two weeks and then i'm gonna dye it electric blue. That's all there is to report really. Except i have a new Supergirl t-shirt and it looks awesome.

Friday, 12 June 2009

What are they called?

I hate those chain mail things. You know - the messages people send and then tell you to send it to someone else or your wish won't come true or whatever. I can't remember what they are called but i do not llike them and they annoy me. It's bugging me now... What are they called? If you know please tell me because it is really bugging me now! Oh well, i'll get over it!

Sunday, 7 June 2009

pain to gain... is it worth it?

So I'm on this new exercise regime. Now my whole body is aching. But i am mega unfit and that WILL change. I guess the expression "no pain, no gain" isn't bollocks after all... Damn.

poetry of the damned


It's not fair.
I don't know who i am.
Why do i feel this way?
I'm never able to be myself. Not really.
There's always a piece locked away.
A secret i won't ever say.
A lie i'll never reveal.
I made a mistake. It cost me everything.
I'll never be the same again.
No one knows who i really am.
He thought he knew me, but he didn't.
She thought she saw me, but she didn't.
What they thought they knew and saw was a shadow of what was real.
Of what i really feel.
I'll never fit in. I'm an outsider. For that i thank God everyday!
Who wants to be cool when that includes getting drunk, smoking and screwing around?
But why does being an outsider have to be so hard?
I am different. More different than you know.
That's the point really... You will never know. Because i will never tell.

untitled


perseverance is what they say my strength is
They must be right
because i got hurt again tonight
Yet i'm still ready to love
Rebound is my second name
But not in the way you might think
I wish i could hate you
But i don't have the strength
One day my heart will not be able to hold on anymore
will not react to heartbreak with immunity
i think today is that day.