Whaa --?!

Still highly confused, still going mad. But i have made some decisions - most of which i can't remember but i am fairly confident that it will all come flooding back once i get the two things that are swirling round my head (there are others but these take precedent over them) they are college and my friendship going weird. I mean one minute he's all "yeah lets move in together and here's the oven we'll have for our kitchen and if you have kids I'll babysit and I'll be there for you and them" .... Fade out. And then, i get a bit "yeah, well. You left me once will you do it again." That's all my issues and stuff i have to deal with i know. Anyways I'm getting off topic because I'm tired and i don't know what I'm really saying anymore... Gargh! Good night and goodbye!