A dark night ahead
I've lost all the faith i had in life and hope. I just feel so bleak and hopeless now. Even he can't help me. He's a part of the reason. I love him too much. I can't bear it anymore. He laid his hand on my back to guide me away from walking into a pole and it rested there for ages afterwards and i read so much into that it's stupid! Onto another subject. It's gonna take years to get to where i want to be and i don't mind paying my dues but what i do mind is people telling me what i want and when i should get it. It's not fair and he still expects me to fight for it and i don;t ant to anymore i just want to give up and let go.
poetry of the damned
It's not fair.
I don't know who i am.
Why do i feel this way?
I'm never able to be myself. Not really.
There's always a piece locked away.
A secret i won't ever say.
A lie i'll never reveal.
I made a mistake. It cost me everything.
I'll never be the same again.
No one knows who i really am.
He thought he knew me, but he didn't.
She thought she saw me, but she didn't.
What they thought they knew and saw was a shadow of what was real.
Of what i really feel.
I'll never fit in. I'm an outsider. For that i thank God everyday!
Who wants to be cool when that includes getting drunk, smoking and screwing around?
But why does being an outsider have to be so hard?
I am different. More different than you know.
That's the point really... You will never know. Because i will never tell.
untitled
perseverance is what they say my strength is
They must be right
because i got hurt again tonight
Yet i'm still ready to love
Rebound is my second name
But not in the way you might think
I wish i could hate you
But i don't have the strength
One day my heart will not be able to hold on anymore
will not react to heartbreak with immunity
i think today is that day.
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