I will live I will die. I will laugh I will cry. But i won't wait for you again In the rain Like i did last night. Goodbye.
Wednesday, 16 September 2009
I love him, but is it enough?
Are we meeting? I don't know because he won't bloody get back to me! Ah, how i did NOT miss this part of a relationship: the plans that might fall through, the "are we or are we not?" conversations or lack of. Urgh! Is love worth this?
It's not fair. I don't know who i am. Why do i feel this way? I'm never able to be myself. Not really. There's always a piece locked away. A secret i won't ever say. A lie i'll never reveal. I made a mistake. It cost me everything. I'll never be the same again. No one knows who i really am. He thought he knew me, but he didn't. She thought she saw me, but she didn't. What they thought they knew and saw was a shadow of what was real. Of what i really feel. I'll never fit in. I'm an outsider. For that i thank God everyday! Who wants to be cool when that includes getting drunk, smoking and screwing around? But why does being an outsider have to be so hard? I am different. More different than you know. That's the point really... You will never know. Because i will never tell.
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perseverance is what they say my strength is They must be right because i got hurt again tonight Yet i'm still ready to love Rebound is my second name But not in the way you might think I wish i could hate you But i don't have the strength One day my heart will not be able to hold on anymore will not react to heartbreak with immunity i think today is that day.
see ya around sometime
I'm leaving tonight on the first train to... Wherever How do you feel... Now that i'm really gone? Do you regret saying what you did? Do you regret not telling me how you really felt? Do you now regret leaving when i needed you the most? I thought the pain would go on forever. And i think a part of it will. After all the people who you love never really leave you... Or is that the people who love you? Well, you see my point. See ya around when i'm fixed not broken Sometimes i forgive and forget But for now, I'm just gonna say See ya around sometime.
I used to really care about what others thought of me but now i just don't. I'll be myself to the end and if others don't like it; so what? I keep most of my thoughts and feelings from my friends and family. In short i'm independant and i do not take any crap from anybody.
I can't stop hoping I can't stop dreaming I know there is no point You will never come back Everyone says i will meet someone else But i don't want anyone else Because i will never love again after this You destroyed what little trust i had and what little hope had appeared in my heart I am now running in every possible direction I'm changing everything you know about me Everything you liked about me I'm moving out of home and city i'm sorry if i seem bitchy when i say you ruined my life you were cut so deep inside I could have helped you heal But i guess now we'll never know If we could have made it in the big bad world i guess i'll see you around sometime When you've moved on with your family and home And i'm still alone too scared to love again
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14th february
Blood is red and the sky is blue i'm bitter and resentful how about you? (In case you hadn't figured it out i hate v. day, cause i never get to spend it with anyone.)
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ReplyDeleteI'm so glad this doesn't only happen to me!
Hope it all works out hun x
Thanks. It did in the end. x
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