I will...

I will live
I will die.
I will laugh
I will cry.
But i won't wait for you again
In the rain
Like i did last night.
Goodbye.

Wednesday, 16 September 2009

Yes, it is.

Yes, love is worth it. Met up with him today and... Well, that's it really. Nothing else can be said. My day was made the moment i saw him... I can't believe I've gotten myself so wrapped up in one person... But i wish i could feel the way i do when I'm with him - Like all my troubles just disappear and I'm happy - all the time. But i can't.
Just now reality hit. The harsh, cold, realistic fact that i won;t be having surgery anytime soon. That i will never get to truly be myself until uni starts and i get as far away from my home town as possible. Oh well, I'll just have to deal.

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poetry of the damned


It's not fair.
I don't know who i am.
Why do i feel this way?
I'm never able to be myself. Not really.
There's always a piece locked away.
A secret i won't ever say.
A lie i'll never reveal.
I made a mistake. It cost me everything.
I'll never be the same again.
No one knows who i really am.
He thought he knew me, but he didn't.
She thought she saw me, but she didn't.
What they thought they knew and saw was a shadow of what was real.
Of what i really feel.
I'll never fit in. I'm an outsider. For that i thank God everyday!
Who wants to be cool when that includes getting drunk, smoking and screwing around?
But why does being an outsider have to be so hard?
I am different. More different than you know.
That's the point really... You will never know. Because i will never tell.

untitled


perseverance is what they say my strength is
They must be right
because i got hurt again tonight
Yet i'm still ready to love
Rebound is my second name
But not in the way you might think
I wish i could hate you
But i don't have the strength
One day my heart will not be able to hold on anymore
will not react to heartbreak with immunity
i think today is that day.