No going back

I wrote him a letter last night and i said everything... Well almost everything i have ever wanted to say to him in the past few months. But i didn't lay a Major guilt trip on him... Wonder if i should send it? I just want to clear the air before he is out of my life for good. But i have a feeling he will never be out of my life, he will always be there, in my heart. It has just occurred to me that in one or two years this day will not even be remembered. That's sad. I suppose it's up to me to make it memorable but how do i go about that? I have no money, no friends, no car and no where to bloody go. I miss the time we used to spend together. But the past is just that - the past. There is no going back now.