why is this so hard?!

He hasn't got my CD. So what the hell has he done with it?! Why is he doing this to me?! But this is it now. I'm done. No more talking about him. No more thinking about him and DEFINITELY no more moping about him. I will live MY life how I want. So first off, I'm gonna go to drama, I'll be looking into colleges away from here more intently and I'm gonna move on. I dunno how long this "moving on thing" will last... probably until tonight. But if i keep busy i know i can NOT think about him... Oh who the hell am i kidding?! Why is it so hard to get over him? I've got over relationships before but there is something different this time... maybe because i really loved this guy? By the way another friend is leaving in a couple of weeks. Hm. : ( I can't feel anything. I've gone completely numb towards people now. Apparently he may or may not have said something about me... I don't care but i think i have the right to know what that something was right? But then again my source wasn't really reliable...