I will...

I will live
I will die.
I will laugh
I will cry.
But i won't wait for you again
In the rain
Like i did last night.
Goodbye.

Sunday, 22 March 2009

friendship?

I don't care what anyone in that school thinks of me. I am worth more than all of that lot. He can have them if he wants his own little group, but i just hope he realises before it's too late that they aren't as close as he thinks. They don't know anything about him and he doesn't know anything about them. What type of friendship is that?! They don't keep in contact outside of class and that won't change when school is out for good and we all go our separate ways. One of the boys in our school wants to do a reunion in three years, i can safely say no bloody way! Once I'm gone from that lot and that place I'm gone for good.

1 comment:

  1. That sounds just like me when I left school. Just wanted to get away from it all- fresh start. Admittedly I left all my friends behind and became a loner, but Im so much happier
    Good luck with it all, you've made the right decisions
    x

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poetry of the damned


It's not fair.
I don't know who i am.
Why do i feel this way?
I'm never able to be myself. Not really.
There's always a piece locked away.
A secret i won't ever say.
A lie i'll never reveal.
I made a mistake. It cost me everything.
I'll never be the same again.
No one knows who i really am.
He thought he knew me, but he didn't.
She thought she saw me, but she didn't.
What they thought they knew and saw was a shadow of what was real.
Of what i really feel.
I'll never fit in. I'm an outsider. For that i thank God everyday!
Who wants to be cool when that includes getting drunk, smoking and screwing around?
But why does being an outsider have to be so hard?
I am different. More different than you know.
That's the point really... You will never know. Because i will never tell.

untitled


perseverance is what they say my strength is
They must be right
because i got hurt again tonight
Yet i'm still ready to love
Rebound is my second name
But not in the way you might think
I wish i could hate you
But i don't have the strength
One day my heart will not be able to hold on anymore
will not react to heartbreak with immunity
i think today is that day.