I will...

I will live
I will die.
I will laugh
I will cry.
But i won't wait for you again
In the rain
Like i did last night.
Goodbye.

Sunday, 17 May 2009

To Sapphire

I have the opportunity to leave. To become someone else. But i don't know if it's what i want. Or if it's what's best. I also have to decide on colleges, whether to bother taking the next eleven exams and finally i don't know whether i should talk to him again because he seems so changed and unlike himself and i am worried that he is in self destruct mode.
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  1. Sapphire17 May 2009 at 08:06

    I thought you were going off to college in the fall. You should definitely go to college. I don't know what you mean by leave? If you have the opportunity to go some where for the summer you should probably take it.

    In the future you will look back and wonder why you spent so much time fretting over him. The only reason you are still thinking about him is because you did not have any control over the situation. If you had dumped him, you would never think of him again.

    You need to find someone new and may be leaving will help you to find someone new.

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  2. Twinkle17 May 2009 at 09:34

    I agree, you should get up there and go for it. I was worried about leaving school but it turned out to be one of the best things I've done and I'm very proud of myself from breaking away from everyday comforts and going for something new.
    There's a big world out there!

    If you leave I'm sure you have the opportunity to come back (correct me if I'm wrong! :S)?

    Get your exams done then you'll have a load off your mind and then can focus on making the right decisions. I had a friend that walked out on all his exams and he ended up nowhere... I know everyone says it, but 'do your best'!

    Best of luck
    x

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poetry of the damned


It's not fair.
I don't know who i am.
Why do i feel this way?
I'm never able to be myself. Not really.
There's always a piece locked away.
A secret i won't ever say.
A lie i'll never reveal.
I made a mistake. It cost me everything.
I'll never be the same again.
No one knows who i really am.
He thought he knew me, but he didn't.
She thought she saw me, but she didn't.
What they thought they knew and saw was a shadow of what was real.
Of what i really feel.
I'll never fit in. I'm an outsider. For that i thank God everyday!
Who wants to be cool when that includes getting drunk, smoking and screwing around?
But why does being an outsider have to be so hard?
I am different. More different than you know.
That's the point really... You will never know. Because i will never tell.

untitled


perseverance is what they say my strength is
They must be right
because i got hurt again tonight
Yet i'm still ready to love
Rebound is my second name
But not in the way you might think
I wish i could hate you
But i don't have the strength
One day my heart will not be able to hold on anymore
will not react to heartbreak with immunity
i think today is that day.