So...

... I now have a budgie. I have a habit of going out with money, passing a pet shop, seeing an animal alone in a cage looking all sad and adorable and buying it without thinking. I ALWAYS look after them well and i have plenty of room, but it's hard and i do nothing but worry if they're OK. Well, i have a trip to Brighton planned for may and a holiday to Ireland for July. Looking for a job so i can have a little extra spending money there. School starts back up next week therefore exams are also gonna play a big part on my mind. I miss him sometimes but yesterday i discovered something: I have friends. Jo walked me home again and we stayed outside talking for ages, didn't realise until i finally got inside. I told club my news and they were extremely supportive with loads of hugs and congrats! I couldn't believe it. I don't want to have to face him at school, but i think i can get through it. My first day back is a Tuesday so afterwards I'll be cheered up by club and he doesn't go there anymore for reasons i can't tell. OK I've vented, ranted and just generally talked about crap that's happened. I'm beginning to get tired now, it's been a long day. sometimes i miss him and it's unbearable and it tears me apart but i just have to remember what he did to me and that I'm better off with the friends that DON'T treat me like crap.