Feeling so...

Feeling both elegant and a total mess today. Both giggly and sad. It's weird, this mixture of feelings. I suppose that's what makes emotions complicated, you can never feel just one, you have to feel this mixture. I do not want to go to club tomorrow. It's been easier than i thought - not seeing him - It's better. I don't want to see him and go through that heartbreak again. I've just started to heal again, only after a couple of days! But i suppose it's best to get it over with now than to wait until I'm in class then BOOM! There he is and my heart breaks all over room two's floor in front of my fellow peers. At club i can just bolt with a lame ass excuse if i need to. But I'm gonna avoid all of that by not getting heartbroken. I can deal with this on my own, i don't need anyone.