Another thing i'll never know

Currently doing math coursework. I'll be glad to leave this all behind! So, i saw him, the first time in just under a month. I felt nothing, at last! But there is still a dwelling sadness. I miss him is all. Stupid huh? That i miss someone who turned their back on me when i had no one else. Maybe he did it because he was scared? Maybe because he s selfish? Guess that's another thing I'll never know. Did a speaking and listening exam, i had to pretend to be this girl who had no one and no where to turn and was desperate to make all the hurt go away. That wasn't hard to do, the questions were easy to answer, I could relate to this girl so much, it was kinda scary.