Missing

Well, it's a good job I'm a pessimist otherwise i would have been let down today. We were in a room on our own and he didn't talk to me. I give up, I'm not going to ever get him back so why bother anymore? It's just that i have no one else and i honestly thought he would be the one person in my life who wouldn't treat me like dirt. I don't even know what i miss about him. I just miss him. Recently it's like a huge part of me is lost. Everyday it feels like i can't breathe and it's so painful. Why can't i find someone who won't leave me?!