What do i do?

I don't know what to do! I still have feelings for him and every minute all i can do is wonder if he'll talk to me. I know the answer so why do i even bother? When i try to fall asleep i try to dream about performing live but eventually he turns up in the audience and the plot twists and my dream isn't about my dream it's about my other dream... The one involving him getting on his knees and begging my forgiveness, or you know, just taking me in his arms like he used to and apologising... Urgh!!!!!!! Someone help me!!!!!! Please?!