Still alone

I'm addicted to music and parties. I started smoking but i quit when i could no longer afford it. It wasn't that hard. The hardest thing i've ever had to do is say goodbye to my best friend, i still have to see him everyday, it's so hard. We used to hug and laugh and be stupid in town. It saddens me to think we will never share that again. We had so many plans... We were gonna live together and he was gonna faint at all of my big moments, like when i get married or something, I was gonna stop him getting all snooty when he met famous people from his job in the media. But i have to stay positive otherwise i'll go nuts. I'm better off a lone wolf, that way no one can hurt me.