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Ouch!!!!

My hand fudging hurts!!! I hit a door - don't ask and i know that was stupid. But on the bright side me and my friend got to hang out today for the first time in about a month - just the two of us. It was great. I still love him like mad, but i think it's more friend-love now. I don't know. But anyways. It's nearly Christmas and I'll be damned if i don't enjoy it because i have to enjoy what is left of this year, for next year will be filled with transfers, exams, money stress and lots lots more! (Joys!) But i need to think positive! MERRY CHRISTMAS! x

Accepted

I think i now accept the fact that I'm stuck in this city for at least three more years, I've accepted that i might not ever live with my best friend, i have given up the hope of getting what i want any time soon. And I'm OK that i will spend the rest of my years alone because i can't face other people except those I'm already stuck with. But that's my issue and i intend not to "work on it" because i am sick of that crap.

Choices

I have to choose between two equally important things in my life. But i don't know which one to go for. Both have their pros and cons if i choose them and i don't know what to do... Gargh!! Why can't i have both... Well i could but it would take A LOT of time...

At the end of the day

I miss the old days. And i wonder if things will ever be the same again. People said things will get easier, they've only got harder. They said things would get better, it's only gotten worse. My life is filled with sadness and wondering with him in it, what would it be like without him? Would it be better or worse? I don't care to find out. Because at the end of the day you shouldn't really give up on someone you can't spend a minute not thinking about.

Damaged

I think i've been broken.

Wish

I wish things could be clearer. I wish i didn't love him. I wish he would love me back. I wish... Wishes came true...